Today I had 1 meeting at work. It was designed to give me clear goals about what my role is supposed to be. Instead, I got goals to come up with what those goals should be.

What annoyed me today?

I am not enjoying work at the moment. Hell, I’m not enjoying much of anything at the moment.

The problem with that is that it’s not really an “at the moment” problem. I’ve been unhappy at work for a couple of years now. I still have my resignation letter from late last year — I just decided not to hand it in at the last minute because my one on one with my manager became a handover meeting to a new manager, and I didn’t feel it was appropriate to resign in that call.

But I think the biggest frustration at the minute is that I don’t really know what I want. I know I don’t enjoy what I’m doing at the moment, but I don’t know what I could do that might change that.

And so I’ve jumped around roles a little in the past 6 months, with meaningless promotions (but meaningful pay rises), but ultimately I just feel empty when I log in to the computer for the day’s work.

Worth a read

“Now, four years later, Coogler is back with Black Panther: Wakanda Forever – a film that comes in the wake of the unthinkable loss of Chadwick Boseman, who passed away from cancer in August 2020. That tragedy drove the question the director says is central to his sequel: ‘How do you carry on in the face of seemingly insurmountable odds?’

It’s a notion with resonance in the film itself, but also for the indelible Boseman’s fans, filmmaking collaborators, friends, and family – all of us processing his loss, as well as the global upheaval of the pandemic.

I am absolutely dreading the new Black Panther movie. Not because I think it will be bad, but because I don’t know how I will control my emotions at the cinema.

Today’s soundtrack:

I remember seeing Ben Folds at the Enmore Theatre not long after this came out, and he played a similar set list. It was incredible.

Written in Mount Annan, NSW on iPhone

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